Category Archives: In Others’ Words

O Believe, My Heart, Believe

Another musician’s words that speak of the mystery of eternal life made possible through the life, death and resurrection of God the Son, Christ Jesus. This was written in a handcrafted card on Hannah’s first death day, October 13, 2007.                                                                  

Playing to Heaven’s Ear


On October 12, 2006 Christy, a friend from Hannah’s church in Orlando, Florida was strolling through the National Gallery in Washington DC. Her eye was caught by an oil painting on canvas  “St. Cecilia and the Angel”, painted in the fifteenth century by Orazio Gentileschi and Giovanni Lanfranco. She could not believe it; the girl in the painting looked like Hannah. She went to the gallery gift shop and described the painting to a dubious clerk. He referred her to a more knowledgeable man. He immediately led Christy to the print you see before you. She bougth a mailer to send it the next day to Hannah, who was in the hospital after transplant. It was never mailed; the next day she received word Hannah died. Now this gift is a treasured witness of God’s grace to all who listened when Hannah made music on the piano. 

               “St. Cecilia and the Angel”  fifteenth century oil on canvas                          National Gallery of Art Washington DC

Easter 2005

HANNAH

Last December my niece, Hannah, who has Cystic Fibrosis, became very ill and had to be life-flighted to Shands Hospital in Gainesville.

After a few hours there, the Doctor asked to speak to Coleman, my brother and Hannah’s father.  The doctor told us that Hannah was in danger of going into respiratory distress,  which meant for a CF patient that her lungs would be no longer usable.  The doctor said that if that happened, the only way to save Hannah was to put her on a respirator.  But, if that happened, and she had to stay on it for longer than 3 days, that would cause changes in Hannah’s respiratory system that would mean she would have to be removed from the transplant list, which is her only hope for long term survival.

The doctor needed to know what we wanted to do if Hannah went into respiratory distress.

When we went back into her room, Hannah knew that something was going on, and she wanted to talk.

My brother sat down on her bed, and told her that she might need a respirator to breathe.  But, that if she needed it for longer than 3 days, she would be taken off of the transplant list.

And he told her that the doctor needed to know what to do, so Hannah had to decide now.

Hannah leaned over, her head bowed down,

trying to think….

trying to breathe…23 years old, and having to decide that.

Then, Coleman leaned closer,

till their heads almost touched,

And he said,

“Can I tell you what I think?”

She nodded.

Then their heads touched, forehead to forehead.

And Coleman said,

“Hannah, I think you should go on the respirator if you need it….

and we will pray and hope that the lungs come…

And then, if they don’t come in 3 days,

then, Hannah, I think…

we should remove the respirator….

Because Hannah,

I don’t want to hold you here like that…

and keep you from the arms of Jesus.”

Hannah was still for a moment.

And then, do you know what she did?

She nodded again.

“Yes” she nodded.

She looked death right in the eye,

she saw its red eyes,

and yellow teeth,

she and my brother

stared it down,

And then she said “Yes!”

Yes! To trying to live…

Yes! To having to die….

And Yes!

Oh Yes!!

To Jesus…

to that brave and strong Savior

Who meets us in every Good Friday…

in every death…..

To be with us

and walk with us

on through that valley.

And beloved, from that dark night…..

when death was sent running for cover from that room!….

to this very day,

Hannah has gotten better….

and stonger….

as she waits for those lungs.

Why?  What happened?

I think it is because, in that moment,

when she went forehead to forehead with her father,

DEATH DID ALL IT COULD DO TO HANNAH!!!!!!!

She died.

She let go.

She sunk into the abyss…

and she found there…

she found it to be true there…

what the Apostle knew:

That whether we live…

or whether we die….

we are the Lord’s.

And, when you finally know that,

then what is there to be afraid of?

What is there to stop you

from living life with all you’ve got?

I am asking you, Beloved,

on this Easter morning,

What is there to stop us from living life

with all we’ve got?!

Easter sermon 2005 by Hannah’s uncle, Gwin Pratt